Friday, December 13, 2024

Morning Stars Everywhere Rohatsu Sesshin



This past weekend we honored Shakyamuni Buddha's awakening, conventionally celebrated on December 8,  ("rohatsu" in Japanese.)   Many of the participants are pictured at the left, in a photo taken by Dharma Holder Michael Herzog.  The tanto (head seat), Lara Nordenson, gave the sesshin the name "Morning Stars Everywhere." This name was based on the teaching that the Buddha awakened when he saw the morning star after a long night of fighting off the forces of confusion and suffering in his own mind, through the powerful practice of being still and unmoving in the face of everything.   (Otherwise known as zazen!)

 The teachers of this Rohatsu sesshin, Dharma Holder Alan Richardson, David Roshi and myself talked about how this morning star appears everywhere, in all places and in all times.  And we chose the following koan to explore together., Case 32 in the Gateless Gate collection:

THE BUDDHA RESPONDS TO AN OUTSIDER

An outsider asked the World-Honored One, “I do not ask for the spoken; I do not ask for the unspoken.” The World-Honored One just sat still.

The outsider praised him, saying, “The World-Honored One with his great compassion and mercy has opened the clouds of my delusion and enabled me to enter the way.” He then made bows and took his leave.

Ananda asked, “What did that outsider realize to make him praise you?”

The World-Honored One said, “He is like the fine horse who runs even at the shadow of the whip.”

Wumen's commentary

Ananda is the Buddha's disciple, but his realization is less than the outsider's.  Now tell me, how do they differ -- the disciple and the outsider?

Wumen's Verse

Walking along the edge of a sword,

Running along the ridge of an iceberg,

No steps, no ladders,

Jumping from the cliff with hands open.


Wednesday, November 27, 2024

Realizing the True Self

My dear friend, the Zen teacher Dosho Port, recently posted a challenging essay on his blog.  The gist of his message was that Zen communities are not like church communities -- the emphasis, while celebrating community through practicing together -- is about waking up together.  Zen Buddhist temples are not meant to be social clubs.  

And more important, Zen teachers are not therapists, pastoral counselors, or caregivers primarily.  In those kinds of relationships, the relationship is client-centered.  The practitioner/minister/therapist focuses on the student/parishioner/client and their particular constructed stories  about reality, and especially about their unique "habitualized self."  Instead, a Zen teacher focuses on how to awaken to a recognition of the truth of the awakened heart, which exists beyond all kinds of self-identities, personal traumas and narratives. This is my version of what Dosho wrote, so my apologies to him if I missed or distorted anything.  And of course, this is what all of us human beings are doing continually!

And here is the most radical part of the essay, in Dosho's own words: 

"In Zen, the student must direct themselves toward the teacher. Why? If a student is really going to do what's necessary to awaken and go deeply into post-awakening training, it will only work in that way. Plainly put, as long as a student is making the practice about their habitualized self, they will not realize the true self. And only when the student finds the aspiration that burns deep within will they have the power for the Way."

In my experience with students, the journey within, Dogen's "backward step" and Shitou's "Turn around the light to shine within, then just return" are important pointers to a challenging investigation.  We spend so much time building up walls of protection so that we will feel safe in our constructed selves, and once we let someone else in to that tender and deep place we can feel exposed and terrified.  My sense of the Zen teacher's job is to wait for a moment when someone seems ready to open up to a different way of being, and then begin to gently probe, challenge, and affirm.  What is affirmed, of course, is not the constructed, habitualized self, which we cling to for dear life, but the unconstructed self that lies at the core of those layers of protection.  And this is where awakening comes from.  

Awakening is not a thing that happens and then is over.  It's the beginning, and sometimes only a glimpse, of the possibility of a life supported by the energy of the universe.  It is contained in every sensation in the body, every emotion and every thought.  We dismiss too much of our lives because we also have a constructed idea of what awakening is.  We can't believe that awakening includes what we don't want.   And so we exclude many doorways to awakening, because we become selective.  Everything is a doorway to awakening.  Dharma gates are boundless.  



Thursday, November 14, 2024

No Other World Sesshin

photo by Pierce Butler

 This past weekend, in the midst of our recovery from the US presidential election, we had a deep and community-building on-line sesshin.  Our tanto, Jenny Smith, assisted by Pierce Butler, Sabrina Mills and David Linshaw, named the sesshin "No Other World."  This was in honor of the text the teachers (Dharma Holder Michael Herzog, David Rynick, Rōshi and me) used as the theme of the retreat, and also a poem by Gary Snyder that I read and commented on called "Why Log Truck Drivers Rise Earlier than Students of Zen" which ends with the line "There is no other life."  Our text came from a dialogue in the Record of Xuansha:

A monk said, “I’ve just arrived here and I beg the master to point out a gate whereby I may enter.” Xuansha said, “Do you hear the sound of the water in the creek?” The monk siad, “I hear it.” Xuansha said, “Enter here.” 

In these wild times, Xuansha's teaching remains relevant and inspiring.  Whatever we may feel: grief, anger, fear, happiness, joy...and in whatever circumstances we find ourselves, the teaching of the Great Way invites us to enter into this life as it is.  Here we can find the way to being a bodhisattva in this burning world.  And, there is no other world.

Tuesday, November 12, 2024

Ethan Nichern's Confidence

 

A few months ago I received Ethan Nichtern's amazing book, Confidence: Holding Your Seat through Life's Eight Worldly Winds.  I've been interested in these teachings for many years.  My first Zen teacher used to mention the eight worldly winds at the beginning of every sesshin.  His teachings focused on how the winds could be transformed through deep meditation.  

The winds are:  pleasure and pain, praise and criticism, fame and insignificance, and success and failure.  These pairs of opposites assail us regularly as human beings.  Nichtern is an American-born Tibetan Buddhist teacher, and his book couldn't be more timely, as we all work with these worldly winds in the aftermath of the recent US election.  

Nichtern lived through an organizational crisis in his own sangha, much as I did in Boundless Way after the 2016 election.  He is open about that, and other aspects of his personal life, without getting caught in whining and "too much information."  All of the ways we process our difficulties, blown about as we are by circumstances, show up clearly and with great heart and tenderness in this book.  Free of Buddhist jargon, it's a clear-eyed guide to navigating human life in all its complexity.   I highly recommend it! 

Tuesday, October 15, 2024

Field of Flowers October Hybrid Sesshin

photo by Pierce Butler and Corwyn Miyagishima
 Another month and another sesshin -- and this one was an anniversary.  Fifteen years ago, Boundless Way had its first sesshin at the Temple.  To commemorate this, the teachers chose the kōan from the Gateless Gate, "The Buddha holds up a flower" which celebrates the transmission of the Dharma from Shakyamuni Buddha to Mahakashyapa, a fundamental story in our Zen tradition.  Dharma Holder Alan Richardson, Dharma Holder Michael Herzog and I taught the sesshin, and Dharma Holder Rev. Paul Galvin was the tanto (head seat.). Rev. Paul named the sesshin:  even though there was only one flower in the story, everyone who attended, in person and on line, revealed their Buddha nature without hesitation -- many flowers, many smiles.   A lovely and deep time for us all.

Wednesday, October 2, 2024

Aimless Wanderers Sesshin September 2024

 

photo by Pierce Butler
Almost a month ago we had our Distant Temple Bell sesshin on Zoom.  Pictured to the left are many of the attendees.  To celebrate David Rõshi's new book "Wandering Close to Home" we took as our theme a kõan about wandering, Case 20 from the Book of Serenity:  Dizang's Nearness.  In this kõan, Fayang tells Dizang that he is wandering aimlessly, but he doesn't know where he's going.  Dizang praises him, saying, "Not knowing is most intimate."

In these times, with war, politics and wild weather surrounding us, not knowing what will happen next feels realistic.  To allow ourselves the intimacy of being in good company in our lostness and confusion is the path that Zen shows us.  May we all wander into clarity and balance as we face these difficult times.

Monday, August 26, 2024

Transmission of the Light August 2024 sesshin

photo by Michael Herzog
  Pictured here are most of the group who attended the third week of our summer residency program, which culminated in a seven-day sesshin which our tanto, Dharma Holder Rev. Paul Galvin, named "The Transmission of the Light."  

This is a particularly resonant name for Paul and for me, because on the last night, in a private (secret) ceremony witnessed by David Rynick, Rōshi, Dharma Holder Alan Richardson and Dharma Holder Michael Herzog, I gave Denkai transmission to Rev. Paul.  He is thus a transmitted teacher, and may take on shoken students and transmit the precepts.  Until he receives Denbo transmission and becomes a Sensei, he can't yet transmit the Dharma to anyone else.

The ceremony was guarded from demons wanting to interfere (a fairly ancient tradition) by Rev. Ray Demers, Senior Assistant Teacher Rev. Corwyn Miyagishima, and Senior Assistant Teacher Jenny Smith.  Since the transmission appears to have been successful, their wielding of two wooden swords (kyosakus) and my shakujo (large staff) appears to have been quite effective.  Rev. Paul is pictured above wearing his new gold/ochre rakusu which indicates his new role as Dharma Holder.  

Congratulations to Dharma Holder Rev. Paul!


Friday, August 2, 2024

Just This Is It

 

I recently finished reading (after many years of perusing) the wonderful book by Taigen Dan Leighton pictured here.  Leighton published this in 2015, so I'm only 9 years late to the party.  I was happy to meet the author at a Dharma Teachers conference a number of years ago, and I found him to be warm and friendly, and with a deep Zen practice.  The book, which is about our Zen ancestor Dongshan, is a great way to understand the life and  teachings of this important lineage ancestor.

Leighton explains that Dongshan was always pointing to the suchness of things -- "just this is it."  I highly recommend the book as a way of understanding many of Dongshan's most important writings:  The Five Ranks (or Modes or Degrees), many koans which feature Dongshan, and The Jewel Mirror Samadhi, his beautiful poem about the Great Way.  

One small caveat, which has tripped up not a few people -- Leighton tells us that Dongshan's teacher Yunyan was the biological brother of Daowu, but most scholars understand them to be Dharma brothers -- students of the same teacher.  Beyond that small glitch, Leighton's insight and his own practice are trustworthy guides to these teachings.  Enjoy the book as a companion and inspiration to your own discovery of "just this is it!"

Friday, July 5, 2024

A Few Words About Koans

On July 20 I'll be offering a 3 hour koan café for Sangha Live's Day of Practice series (Sangha Live registration link) and it's gotten me thinking about koans in general, and in particular how to introduce these teaching stories to people who are not familiar with them.  So -- a few words about them.

Personally, I absolutely love koans, and always have.  I first encountered them in the book edited by Paul Reps called Zen Flesh, Zen Bones.  Reps published his book in 1957 and it consists of four texts on non-dual teachings, three of which are collections of Zen teaching stories and koans, including a translation of The Gateless Gate by the Japanese Zen teacher Nyogen Senzaki.

I must have been a teen-ager when I found the book in the 1970's, and read it again and again.  I didn't understand the stories, but I deeply wanted to, and started looking around for someone who could help me explore them.  It wasn't until 1981 that I met my first Zen teacher, Richard Clarke,  a student of Philip Kapleau, Rōshi, who prepared me for the work of koan introspection by helping me to ground in zazen, the practice of meditation that focuses on upright sitting in stillness and silence, being with the breath and body.  After many years of this practice, Richard introduced me to the koan "mu" which begins the Gateless Gate.  I worked with him for 20 years, "completing" the koan curriculum that he used, which included four collections of classical Chinese koans.

After I left him and found my second teacher, James Ford, Rōshi, I started again at the beginning, with "mu" and went on to explore the first four collections with fresh eyes, and four more following that.  Somewhere in the middle of all this, James gave me permission to teach koans, and the learning continued to deepen.  

I did some training with John Tarrant, Rōshi, who was James' teacher, and who had created a format for studying koans in groups that he called "Koan Salons".   The style of koan introspection in modern American Zen practice was private and confidential, solely between teacher and student.  Sometimes a teacher would give a talk about a koan and this was followed by either "dharma combat" in which a student would come up to the teacher and ask some challenging question to express their knowledge, or, as we developed the practice in Boundless Way, a "dharma dialogue" which was a friendlier version, with room for students to wonder out loud about the talk and the koan.

In koan salons, the teacher would present the koan during a guided contemplation, within the practice of zazen, repeating the koan many times, and then opening up the koan for a group discussion.  As I adapted this practice for my sangha, eventually renaming it "koan café, " I was amazed at the level of insight that the group developed together, in an atmosphere of wondering and encouraging free association while hearing the koan.  We continue to ask what people notice as reactions in the mind, body and heart as they repeatedly hear the words of the koan.  

In traditional koan study, there are "correct" answers, although some improvisation and personalization is honored and affirmed.  But in the koan café, everyone is correct, so long as they are honest about their responses, and avoid getting lost in intellectual interpretations.  

Whenever I work with a student on one of the more than 2000 koans we use in Boundless Way, my own understanding deepens.  And, as it turns out, every time I offer a koan café something similar happens.  Koans are deep and bottomless offerings from our Zen ancestors that help us to understand the meaning of  a life of awakening.  

David Rynick, Rōshi, my life and teaching partner and I will be offering koan cafés this fall on Zoom at Boundless Way Zen Temple (Boundless Way.)  And of course, the Sangha Live program is coming up soon.  I hope to see you there!

Tuesday, June 25, 2024

Squall on the Pacific June 2025 Sesshin

photo by Rev. Corwyn Miyagishima
 Pictured here are the happy attendees at our recent Boundless Way Zen Temple June Zoom sesshin.  Twenty-eight of us gathered for what we thought was a short sesshin, starting on Friday night and ending midday on Sunday.  But time disappeared and long and short seemed beside the point.  Based on our final sharing, everyone went deep and wide into their practice.  As we have discovered, since our first Zoom sesshin in 2020, the power of the Way manifests in this form as well as when in residence at Boundless Way Zen Temple.

Sangha members from as far east as Iran and as far west as Hawaii attended the retreat, plus people from Europe and the US.  Geography, as well as time, melted away.  

We focused on a koan from the Gateless Gate, number 41, in which the legendary Indian teacher Bodhidharma meets and connects with his eventual dharma heir Hui-ke.  Looking into this koan together, we were able to find in these two ancient characters some reflections of our own innermost longings.

Our next Zoom sesshin will be Sept. 6 -- 9 and is open for registration now (Boundless Way Zen Temple).  Three weeks of residential practice are also open for registration for July and August -- you can attend for one, two or all three weeks.  I hope to practice with you in the future!

Saturday, June 15, 2024

Serious Play with registration link

In a few weeks, I’ll be teaching a three hour kōan café for an organization called “Sangha Live.” 


Sangha Live provides dharma teachings and practice opportunities online to an international sangha.   The folks at Sangha Live have invited me to join them on Saturday, July 20, from 10 am – 1 pm eastern US time to offer a kōan café for them which I have called Serious Play: A Zen Kōan Café. To register for this event go to: register

As many of you know, our Boundless Way Zen Temple kōan cafés are opportunities to explore kōan practice in the non-traditional way pioneered by my teacher’s teacher John Tarrant, Rōshi.  We use meditation, guided contemplations, dharma talks, free association and group dialogue to explore one or more kōans in company with others.  In the free-wheeling, compassionate atmosphere of a kōan café, everyone’s contribution is important, and no-one is ever wrong.  

I hope that you will join me and curious dharma students from many traditions around the world on July 20.

Friday, May 24, 2024

The Truman Show


Last night at Boundless Way Zen Temple,  Dharma Holder Michael Herzog gave a talk about the excerpt from Taego Bou in our sutra book ("Days Like Lightning.")  

In our dharma dialogue/discussion that followed, we focussed on the line "At the end of the road, it's like an iron wall."  A number of us shared our fantasies about what that wall looks and feels like:  a rough and wild stone wall, a slippery aluminum wall, and more.  

A couple of us recalled the last scene in the Truman Show, a movie from 1998 starring Jim Carrey, where the hero tries to escape from his unreal world, and rams into what appears to be the edge of an ocean, but which is simply a stage set.   

Many of the participants hadn't seen the Truman Show, so I thought I'd share the trailer here and hope to entice you into finding it streaming online.  It's a truly Zen movie, in my openion, about waking up to the reality that we're all living in a dream.  Check it out!

Tuesday, May 21, 2024

Boundless Way Zen Temple May Sesshin: As Real As a Dream

photo by Corwyn Miyagishima

Yesterday we completed our May sesshin at Boundless Way Zen Temple.  Some of us were on Zoom, and some of us were in residence at the Temple.  Many of the participants are pictured above.  

Our residential tanto (retreat leader), Lara Nordenson, named the sesshin "As Real As a Dream" inspired by the koan we explored together, copied below:  Ziyong's Last Teaching.  Ziyong was a woman teacher who lived in China in the 17th century.

The last line of the koan reads, "When you are in a dream, you still speak the language of dreams."  This line in itself is so rich for me -- emphasizing the teaching that we are all living in a dream that we sometimes call samsara, ordinary life, and we long for a perfect life, which we can call nirvana or "cessation" -- everything perfect, calm and happy.  

Zen emphasizes, as Dharma Holder Alan Richardson reminded us in his evening encouragement talk, that samsara is nirvana.  This life, this dream, is everything we are looking for, arising as it does in its seemingly imperfect form.  So to live fully in the dream, we must open to and live all the parts of our lives, including what we don't want.  We must speak the language of dreams while we are living the dream.  This talk, and our other talks and discussions, will be available on our Boundless Way Zen Temple website:  Boundless Way Zen Temple

Below the koan I have added some additional sayings and poems from this important woman ancestor. 


Ziyong’s Last Teaching


From Ziyong Ru Chanshi Yulu ( The Discourse Records of Chan Master Ziyong Ru, translated by Beata Grant) Ziyong Chengru, Linji, China, known as “Ship of Compassion”and “Universal Compassion” born 1645, successor of Gulu Fan)


Master Ziyong Chengru was dying, and her disciple, the nun Jinxuan, was very anxious. Ziyong said to her, “From the beginning there has been neither birth nor death – so what nirvana will there be?”


But Jingxuan’s grief continued.


Ziyong then gave a shout, and Jinxuan went into a state of deep meditation. Ziyong called her out of it and asked, ”At this moment is there any nirvana, or is there not any nirvana?”


Jingxuan said, “Your disciple from the beginning has experienced neither birth nor death, so what nirvana can there be?”


Ziyong said, “This is what it is like before the dream.”


Jingxuan asked, "What is it like after the dream?”


Ziyong said, “when you are in a dream, you still speak the language of dreams.”


Additional sayings and poems of Ziyong:


The Dharma does not rise up alone – it can’t emerge without reliance on the world. If I take up the challenge of speaking I must surely borrow the light and the dark, the form and the emptiness of the mountains and hills and the great earth, the call of the magpies and the cries of the crows.  The water flows and the flowers blossom, brilliantly preaching without ceasing.  In this way there is no restraint.


Ten Verses Presented on the Occasion of a Gathering in the Capital of My Disciples to See Me Off


Yesterday my disciples spoke to me of the grief of separation

As they poured out the endless sorrow that was in their hearts.

I’ve ordered the flowers in the courtyard not to be too anxious,

Lest they startle the pearly dewdrops on the autumn blooms.


I bought myself a light boat in anticipation of going south.

A bright moon fills my breast; my empty heart feels foolish!

In front of the cliffs, hidden birds sing out time and again,

Saying, “When you reach the south, consult the fifty-three!”


Last night the numinous blossom in my dream split in two;

But when I awoke, it was as before—vast and without a trace.

A heavenful of luminous moon, as clear as if just bathed;

The jade waters of the Yan hills all lift the traveler’s spirits.


Do not slight the lazy and foolish: both come from no mind.

Clouds emerge without thinking, birds just sing their songs.

The wind pierces the flowers’ shimmer, their fragrance so fine.

What need to seek for anything more than surprises like these!


It is just that I love the Yan Mountains and their jade waters,

Where clear breezes and bright moon complement each other.

The birds in the trees know how things will turn out in the end;

Flying close to my carriage, from afar they seal a vow with me.


A skiff of a boat floats in the vastness under the bright moon;

In northern lands or southern skies the landscape is the same.

Stop nattering on, my disciples, about how fond of me you are;

When fall comes, you can expect the geese to return as before.


Two sleevefuls of springtime light as I leave the Forbidden City;

One breastful of anxious thoughts poured out toward the south.

The mountains of Yan on my mind as grieving clouds thicken,

But if you wait until high autumn, then its colors will become clear.


The lightweight sail hangs high among the five-colored clouds;

Ten thousand miles of road to travel, as far as the eye can see.

Its two banks of reed flowers reach beyond the edge of the sky;

The sun’s glow rises above me at the gateway to the eastern sea.



A willow-colored overcoat reminds me it is a cold time of year;

And peach reds still recall the sorrowful feelings of separation.

Filling all the world’s jade waters, one bright moon in the sky;

If you stay and wait on Golden Terrace, you can see it very well.


The Chan mind is not solitary, as clouds in the wilds know;

Reed moon and plum blossom, to whom can I send them?

The sorrow of parting is meaningful and so hard to dismiss;

But if the way is in tune with no-mind, it will go as it should.




Tuesday, May 14, 2024

Taking the Precepts on May 11, 2024

Matt Hass, Anne Fine, me, Alan Richardson, Rich Stretifeld and Ty Burr
photo by Corwyn Miyagishima

I'm still enjoying the glow of our recent precepts ceremony (jukai) last Saturday. We were able to celebrate at the Temple in person, and also on Zoom. Dharma Holder Michael Herzog was away in Florida celebrating Mother's Day with his mom, and David Roshi was recovering from a cold, so they both joined us in the zoom zendo. Along with the 40 folks in person, we had another 40 online, including a number of surprise guests, invited by some of the initiates: my own teacher James Ford Roshi, his wife and longtime practitioner Jan Seymour Ford, my dharma heir Bob Waldinger Roshi, and my old dharma friend Mu Soeng. They all shared some inspiring words, and then Dharma Holder Alan Richardson and I conducted the ceremony in person.

One of the features of our precepts ceremonies in Boundless Way Zen Temple is that we ask all the initiates to share their own reflections on each of the sixteen bodhisattva precepts. All four of the initiates, pictured here with Alan and me, demonstrated their insight into these guidelines for ethical behavior with depth and wit. We literally laughed and cried. And were inspired.

We also had the help of three of our Boundless Way Priests: Rev. Corwyn Miyagishima, who prepared the Temple for the ceremony, assisted by Rev. Paul Galvin and Rev. Ray Demers. And on Zoom, Assistant Teacher Jenny Smith provided technical support. I'm so grateful to all of them for fulfilling their own bodhisattva vows in this tangible way.

Below are the names of the initiates, along with their names in Japanese romanization, kanji and the English translation. Congratulations to all!


Ty Burr (Kanmu): 寛夢 Generous Vision
Rich Streitfeld (Kо̄ji): 荒慈 Wild Compassion

Anne Fine (Jingyо̄): 仁行 Benevolent Action

Matt Haas (Seikon): 誠魂 Sincere Spirit

Monday, May 6, 2024

Don't let us get sick


 I've recently become enchanted with a song that wasn't familiar to me, but that now is a favorite.  It's by Warren Zevon, and it was written a few years before he died in 2003, too young  I only knew his work through the delightful song "Werewolves of London" and it turns out that delight was a habit for Zevon, who was eccentric and plain speaking.  "Don't Let Us Get Sick" is from an album called "Life'll Kill Ya."

David and I heard the song on an episode of "Resident Alien" -- yet another source of delight -- a tv comedy about an alien who takes on the form of a human being after crash landing on earth and has to learn what it means to be an earthling.  The song has taken on a life of its own for me -- reflecting my own longing, after turning 70 and being sick quite a lot this winter, to avoid the first four of the Five Remembrances:

I am of the nature to grow old; There is no way to escape growing old. 

I am of the nature to have ill health; There is no way to escape having ill health. 

I am of the nature to die; There is no way to escape death. 

All that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature of change; There is no way to escape being separated from them. 

My deeds are my closest companions. I am the beneficiary of my deeds; My deeds are the ground on which I stand. 

Zevon sings: "Don't let us get sick; don't let us get old; don't let us be stupid, ok?"

A great mantra for the moment -- it feels so important to accept that all of us want to deny reality, most of the time.  And Zen practice helps us to accept both the reality and the denial, in order to be complete human beings.   And maybe more important -- to not be stupid about it all.

Sunday, May 5, 2024

"Through Right and Wrong" February Sesshin 2024


 In February we had a wonderful sesshin, in person at Boundless Way Zen Temple, and on Zoom.  Although I am writing now in the spring, I recall this deep experience with wonder.  I feel so lucky to be a part of this sangha!

Beginning again

Younger me

 For the past few years, I haven't been posting to this blog, except for photos and brief comments from our Zen sesshins (retreats) at Boundless Way Zen Temple.  I realized the other day that it would be a good idea to start writing again.  

I recently turned 70, and my accumulated years have given me a new perspective, not only about myself, but about the world. So much pain in the world, and in my own life, seems to come from making divisions and holding tightly to opposing views.  

A few weeks ago I accidentally encountered a former colleague who had caused me, and many people I care deeply about, quite a bit of pain a number of years ago.  When we saw each other, we exchanged surprised hugs.  I looked inside myself and could detect nothing angry, sad or afraid in my inner emotional field.  An exclamation,  a hug, smiles, and good-bye.  So simple, and such a relief!

The endless stories of distress and divisiveness that we hold on to so tightly are ways we humans use to cling to certain views that prevent us from seeing the underlying wholeness of life.  This wholeness is available all the time, and becomes detectable and sometimes vividly apparent through dedicated Zen practice.  Being with what is, without moving or looking away, allows the constructions of the mind to begin to dissolve and reveal what we miss when we are preoccupied with maintaining them.  

As Eihei Dogen, my 13th century Japanese Zen ancestor, says in his work "Genjokoan (the Way of Everyday Life)": "To study the Way is to study the self.  To study the self is to forget the self."  This forgetting, this dropping away, is only possible when we allow our attention to be with whatever the self has created to keep itself going.  Once that is done, it drops away on its own.  We can't make that happen, but we can set up conditions for these tastes of freedom.  Following these moments, something else will come along to cling to after the spaciousness wears off.  We don't turn into unfeeling Zen robots who never feel anything.  This practice is an endless series of being with, staying with and allowing of a dropping away of what binds us.  No forcing is required.  

May you find this easy, gentle way to release from the tight, twisted narratives that plague us all individually and as a planet.  

Monday, January 29, 2024

Taking the Precepts (Jukai at Boundless Way Zen Temple, January 2024)

Teachers and Initiates 
 
Madhu and me
Last weekend, six Boundless Way Zen Temple students received the 16 Bodhisattva precepts from the four transmitted teachers.  David Rōshi and I spent some quality time finding appropriate names that both describe the current quality of the student's practice and hopes for the future -- aspiration names, which we wrote on the backs of the rakusus that were sewed by the students themselves.  Dharma Holders Alan and Michael also helped with coming up with ideas for names and signing and stamping.   

Above are some happy pictures of us all.  The ceremony was hybrid -- people attended in person at the Temple and also on zoom, including one of our initiates from the UK.  Here is the list of the people who received jukai, along with their dharma names in Romanized Japanese, Kanji, English:

Brad Roth (Kyо̄gyо̄):  協行 Flowing Action

Deb Haas (Shо̄kyo):  正居 Authentic Presence

David Linshaw (Myо̄chi):  明知 Bright Knowledge

Bix Spanierman (Shindо̄):  深道 Profound Path

Madhusmita Dhakal (Yūen):  勇炎 Courageous Flame

Susann Herrmann (Tokushin):  篤心 Devoted Heart

Taking the precepts is a step on the path of Zen that is determined by an individual student in consultation with their teacher.  Having a moral and ethical sense of what it means to be a human being is an important balance for the practice, which usually involves "taking the backward step" as Dōgen calls it.  Jukai is taking the forward step, into the world which needs our attention and healing energy.

Congratulations to everyone who took jukai!







Wednesday, January 10, 2024

Great Bodhisattva November Sesshin, Running Still December Rohatsu Sesshin and Snow Falling on Bare Branches January Sesshin

 November 2023 sesshin
 January 2024 sesshin



Since I last wrote in this blog, Boundless Way Zen Temple has hosted three sesshins, in November and December, 2023 and in January 2024.  All three were wonderful in their own ways, as usual.  November and January were entirely on Zoom, which continues to be a platform for deep practice in two dimensions.  Our December sesshin was in person at the Temple, and for the first time since the pandemic began, we suspended our requirement for negative covid tests before arrival.  Sadly, we couldn't have predicted the rise in covid cases beginning in early December, and so we had to end the sesshin a little early when one participant tested positive for covid and we had to send them home.  We ended the sesshin early, although most people stayed at the Temple to help with clean-up and care for the Temple before leaving.  Around a third of our participants came down with covid within 10 days of leaving (including me).  Naturally, we will reinstate the testing policy for our next sesshin, scheduled to be a hybrid, with in person and Zoom options, in early February.  We decided not to take a photo on the last day, as we usually do.

I have been reflecting on the Five Remembrances quite a bit while recovering from covid -- it's really true that we are all of the nature to have ill health, as if I needed a reminder.  Resting, canceling appointments, missing Christmas and New Year's with our children and grandchildren, rescheduling our December precepts ceremony have been some of the karmic consequences of being in a human body.  While it's all unavoidable, I did have the delusion that I wouldn't contract covid, having indeed avoided it for the first four years of the pandemic.  All unfolds as it unfolds, and I'm glad for all the learning.  May all of you who read this blog have the best health that is possible for you, as one version of the lovingkindness instructions say.

Happy New Year!