Friday, May 24, 2024

The Truman Show


Last night at Boundless Way Zen Temple,  Dharma Holder Michael Herzog gave a talk about the excerpt from Taego Bou in our sutra book ("Days Like Lightning.")  

In our dharma dialogue/discussion that followed, we focussed on the line "At the end of the road, it's like an iron wall."  A number of us shared our fantasies about what that wall looks and feels like:  a rough and wild stone wall, a slippery aluminum wall, and more.  

A couple of us recalled the last scene in the Truman Show, a movie from 1998 starring Jim Carrey, where the hero tries to escape from his unreal world, and rams into what appears to be the edge of an ocean, but which is simply a stage set.   

Many of the participants hadn't seen the Truman Show, so I thought I'd share the trailer here and hope to entice you into finding it streaming online.  It's a truly Zen movie, in my openion, about waking up to the reality that we're all living in a dream.  Check it out!

Tuesday, May 21, 2024

Boundless Way Zen Temple May Sesshin: As Real As a Dream

photo by Corwyn Miyagishima

Yesterday we completed our May sesshin at Boundless Way Zen Temple.  Some of us were on Zoom, and some of us were in residence at the Temple.  Many of the participants are pictured above.  

Our residential tanto (retreat leader), Lara Nordenson, named the sesshin "As Real As a Dream" inspired by the koan we explored together, copied below:  Ziyong's Last Teaching.  Ziyong was a woman teacher who lived in China in the 17th century.

The last line of the koan reads, "When you are in a dream, you still speak the language of dreams."  This line in itself is so rich for me -- emphasizing the teaching that we are all living in a dream that we sometimes call samsara, ordinary life, and we long for a perfect life, which we can call nirvana or "cessation" -- everything perfect, calm and happy.  

Zen emphasizes, as Dharma Holder Alan Richardson reminded us in his evening encouragement talk, that samsara is nirvana.  This life, this dream, is everything we are looking for, arising as it does in its seemingly imperfect form.  So to live fully in the dream, we must open to and live all the parts of our lives, including what we don't want.  We must speak the language of dreams while we are living the dream.  This talk, and our other talks and discussions, will be available on our Boundless Way Zen Temple website:  Boundless Way Zen Temple

Below the koan I have added some additional sayings and poems from this important woman ancestor. 


Ziyong’s Last Teaching


From Ziyong Ru Chanshi Yulu ( The Discourse Records of Chan Master Ziyong Ru, translated by Beata Grant) Ziyong Chengru, Linji, China, known as “Ship of Compassion”and “Universal Compassion” born 1645, successor of Gulu Fan)


Master Ziyong Chengru was dying, and her disciple, the nun Jinxuan, was very anxious. Ziyong said to her, “From the beginning there has been neither birth nor death – so what nirvana will there be?”


But Jingxuan’s grief continued.


Ziyong then gave a shout, and Jinxuan went into a state of deep meditation. Ziyong called her out of it and asked, ”At this moment is there any nirvana, or is there not any nirvana?”


Jingxuan said, “Your disciple from the beginning has experienced neither birth nor death, so what nirvana can there be?”


Ziyong said, “This is what it is like before the dream.”


Jingxuan asked, "What is it like after the dream?”


Ziyong said, “when you are in a dream, you still speak the language of dreams.”


Additional sayings and poems of Ziyong:


The Dharma does not rise up alone – it can’t emerge without reliance on the world. If I take up the challenge of speaking I must surely borrow the light and the dark, the form and the emptiness of the mountains and hills and the great earth, the call of the magpies and the cries of the crows.  The water flows and the flowers blossom, brilliantly preaching without ceasing.  In this way there is no restraint.


Ten Verses Presented on the Occasion of a Gathering in the Capital of My Disciples to See Me Off


Yesterday my disciples spoke to me of the grief of separation

As they poured out the endless sorrow that was in their hearts.

I’ve ordered the flowers in the courtyard not to be too anxious,

Lest they startle the pearly dewdrops on the autumn blooms.


I bought myself a light boat in anticipation of going south.

A bright moon fills my breast; my empty heart feels foolish!

In front of the cliffs, hidden birds sing out time and again,

Saying, “When you reach the south, consult the fifty-three!”


Last night the numinous blossom in my dream split in two;

But when I awoke, it was as before—vast and without a trace.

A heavenful of luminous moon, as clear as if just bathed;

The jade waters of the Yan hills all lift the traveler’s spirits.


Do not slight the lazy and foolish: both come from no mind.

Clouds emerge without thinking, birds just sing their songs.

The wind pierces the flowers’ shimmer, their fragrance so fine.

What need to seek for anything more than surprises like these!


It is just that I love the Yan Mountains and their jade waters,

Where clear breezes and bright moon complement each other.

The birds in the trees know how things will turn out in the end;

Flying close to my carriage, from afar they seal a vow with me.


A skiff of a boat floats in the vastness under the bright moon;

In northern lands or southern skies the landscape is the same.

Stop nattering on, my disciples, about how fond of me you are;

When fall comes, you can expect the geese to return as before.


Two sleevefuls of springtime light as I leave the Forbidden City;

One breastful of anxious thoughts poured out toward the south.

The mountains of Yan on my mind as grieving clouds thicken,

But if you wait until high autumn, then its colors will become clear.


The lightweight sail hangs high among the five-colored clouds;

Ten thousand miles of road to travel, as far as the eye can see.

Its two banks of reed flowers reach beyond the edge of the sky;

The sun’s glow rises above me at the gateway to the eastern sea.



A willow-colored overcoat reminds me it is a cold time of year;

And peach reds still recall the sorrowful feelings of separation.

Filling all the world’s jade waters, one bright moon in the sky;

If you stay and wait on Golden Terrace, you can see it very well.


The Chan mind is not solitary, as clouds in the wilds know;

Reed moon and plum blossom, to whom can I send them?

The sorrow of parting is meaningful and so hard to dismiss;

But if the way is in tune with no-mind, it will go as it should.




Tuesday, May 14, 2024

Taking the Precepts on May 11, 2024

Matt Hass, Anne Fine, me, Alan Richardson, Rich Stretifeld and Ty Burr
photo by Corwyn Miyagishima

I'm still enjoying the glow of our recent precepts ceremony (jukai) last Saturday. We were able to celebrate at the Temple in person, and also on Zoom. Dharma Holder Michael Herzog was away in Florida celebrating Mother's Day with his mom, and David Roshi was recovering from a cold, so they both joined us in the zoom zendo. Along with the 40 folks in person, we had another 40 online, including a number of surprise guests, invited by some of the initiates: my own teacher James Ford Roshi, his wife and longtime practitioner Jan Seymour Ford, my dharma heir Bob Waldinger Roshi, and my old dharma friend Mu Soeng. They all shared some inspiring words, and then Dharma Holder Alan Richardson and I conducted the ceremony in person.

One of the features of our precepts ceremonies in Boundless Way Zen Temple is that we ask all the initiates to share their own reflections on each of the sixteen bodhisattva precepts. All four of the initiates, pictured here with Alan and me, demonstrated their insight into these guidelines for ethical behavior with depth and wit. We literally laughed and cried. And were inspired.

We also had the help of three of our Boundless Way Priests: Rev. Corwyn Miyagishima, who prepared the Temple for the ceremony, assisted by Rev. Paul Galvin and Rev. Ray Demers. And on Zoom, Assistant Teacher Jenny Smith provided technical support. I'm so grateful to all of them for fulfilling their own bodhisattva vows in this tangible way.

Below are the names of the initiates, along with their names in Japanese romanization, kanji and the English translation. Congratulations to all!


Ty Burr (Kanmu): 寛夢 Generous Vision
Rich Streitfeld (Kо̄ji): 荒慈 Wild Compassion

Anne Fine (Jingyо̄): 仁行 Benevolent Action

Matt Haas (Seikon): 誠魂 Sincere Spirit

Monday, May 6, 2024

Don't let us get sick


 I've recently become enchanted with a song that wasn't familiar to me, but that now is a favorite.  It's by Warren Zevon, and it was written a few years before he died in 2003, too young  I only knew his work through the delightful song "Werewolves of London" and it turns out that delight was a habit for Zevon, who was eccentric and plain speaking.  "Don't Let Us Get Sick" is from an album called "Life'll Kill Ya."

David and I heard the song on an episode of "Resident Alien" -- yet another source of delight -- a tv comedy about an alien who takes on the form of a human being after crash landing on earth and has to learn what it means to be an earthling.  The song has taken on a life of its own for me -- reflecting my own longing, after turning 70 and being sick quite a lot this winter, to avoid the first four of the Five Remembrances:

I am of the nature to grow old; There is no way to escape growing old. 

I am of the nature to have ill health; There is no way to escape having ill health. 

I am of the nature to die; There is no way to escape death. 

All that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature of change; There is no way to escape being separated from them. 

My deeds are my closest companions. I am the beneficiary of my deeds; My deeds are the ground on which I stand. 

Zevon sings: "Don't let us get sick; don't let us get old; don't let us be stupid, ok?"

A great mantra for the moment -- it feels so important to accept that all of us want to deny reality, most of the time.  And Zen practice helps us to accept both the reality and the denial, in order to be complete human beings.   And maybe more important -- to not be stupid about it all.

Sunday, May 5, 2024

"Through Right and Wrong" February Sesshin 2024


 In February we had a wonderful sesshin, in person at Boundless Way Zen Temple, and on Zoom.  Although I am writing now in the spring, I recall this deep experience with wonder.  I feel so lucky to be a part of this sangha!

Beginning again

Younger me

 For the past few years, I haven't been posting to this blog, except for photos and brief comments from our Zen sesshins (retreats) at Boundless Way Zen Temple.  I realized the other day that it would be a good idea to start writing again.  

I recently turned 70, and my accumulated years have given me a new perspective, not only about myself, but about the world. So much pain in the world, and in my own life, seems to come from making divisions and holding tightly to opposing views.  

A few weeks ago I accidentally encountered a former colleague who had caused me, and many people I care deeply about, quite a bit of pain a number of years ago.  When we saw each other, we exchanged surprised hugs.  I looked inside myself and could detect nothing angry, sad or afraid in my inner emotional field.  An exclamation,  a hug, smiles, and good-bye.  So simple, and such a relief!

The endless stories of distress and divisiveness that we hold on to so tightly are ways we humans use to cling to certain views that prevent us from seeing the underlying wholeness of life.  This wholeness is available all the time, and becomes detectable and sometimes vividly apparent through dedicated Zen practice.  Being with what is, without moving or looking away, allows the constructions of the mind to begin to dissolve and reveal what we miss when we are preoccupied with maintaining them.  

As Eihei Dogen, my 13th century Japanese Zen ancestor, says in his work "Genjokoan (the Way of Everyday Life)": "To study the Way is to study the self.  To study the self is to forget the self."  This forgetting, this dropping away, is only possible when we allow our attention to be with whatever the self has created to keep itself going.  Once that is done, it drops away on its own.  We can't make that happen, but we can set up conditions for these tastes of freedom.  Following these moments, something else will come along to cling to after the spaciousness wears off.  We don't turn into unfeeling Zen robots who never feel anything.  This practice is an endless series of being with, staying with and allowing of a dropping away of what binds us.  No forcing is required.  

May you find this easy, gentle way to release from the tight, twisted narratives that plague us all individually and as a planet.